Sometimes I am aware that Jah had some serious plans for me as a Rasta. I shouldn’t really say had because with Jah anything is possible at any time. I feel like I am not living up to my full potential….as a Rasta chosen by the most high. This is mostly when I see the work of other Rasta on places like YouTube making music, and performing on Stage. Or when I look back on the books he had me write…But again for me it comes back to the move to Jamaica, to block out all the influence of Babylon that is not I and I, and to soak up the inspirations that will foster the power of The
Most High, in my heart.
I believe Jah has had different plans for me at different times…I believe he wants me to
- design and make rasta jewelry, such as rasta jamaican earrings necklaces and bracelets
- write books to inspire children of color, on love and knowing the love of The Most High
- Maybe even write some songs, about of course my love for Jah….Rastafari!!!
To be a Rasta is a huge Responsibility
- This…being a Rasta is a great responsibility. You always have to be on your best behaviour, because Jah Rastafari is always watching you, and my judgement as a Rasta will be much more strict and more harsh than that of others.
- I must be aware of the feelings I cause others to feel
- I must be aware of how I treat other people
- I am suppose to approach ever situation with my spiritual awareness and love for Jah
Jah is my inner compass, Jamaica is my home
I love being a Rasta, but I have to accept that I will never be like other people. I have an inner compass already, that if I don’t pay attention to, it leaves me feeling sad and misaligned. I have decided that yes, I will go to Jamaica, to live. I don’t see my self “trying it out” I already know the home of my heart. This thought has been on going for the past 3 years. I read on the internet apparently I am only suppose to stay 6 months but who’s really checking. I guess I’ll stay six months then 1 month in Canada, then go back to my home. Rastafari is something that one inherits spiritually. Every body knows Jamaica is the heart of Reggae music. It’s where it was born, and where it is Fostered. Everybody knows, Jamaica is the heart of Rastafari, it’s where most Rastafari persons live per capita, and where Rastafari is most widely accepted and known of by the people. So again. Day after day I abuse my self by staying in my birth country as if something good is going to come out of this. So far the only thing I fin, is that day after day, I lose a little bit more and more of my self. That is a huge price to pay just to try to make my mother happy who isn’t even a big part of my life.
Everything I do is Rastafari, roots and culture
Every thing I do in my life is Rastafari, that is my choice. I made that decision the day i locked my hair. I figured why go part way. But I didn’t know how many things I could do. The Most High led me through synchronicity to making Rastafari jewelry. I KNOW its part of his plan for me….at least for now. I suddenly just realized how displeased I am with my self….for not making this decision and sticking to it sooner. I would have the same conversation with my mother once a week…”Mom I want to move to Jamaica….” ” no…I don’t think you should, they might Rob you” ” I don’t think so mom, it’s about how you dress and your behaviour…” “ok see for you self..” Then she starts raising her voice. This reminds me of the time my mom wanted me to go nursing school, I told her I didn’t want to….she ended up pounding her fist on the table. Like it’s as if she wants me to be her or something and I can never be, will never be, and have no desire to be. I love my self, I love who I am, I know the Most High chose me. My Job is to live my life for him, do what I can in terms of taking care of my self, move to Jamaica and not worry too much.
- The things I chose to create
- my rasta book on how to become a rastafarian
- my rasta and jamaican African jewelry
are all by my rasta heart. This is the only way I can be happy. I can make other stuff, or write about other things, but my soul wont be happy if I do that.
My Chart says “Life is better for me In Jamaica!”
My astrology chart told me that I would have a good career if I moved to Jamaica that would become my focus. hmmm…Maybe I over read my chart. There I go doubting my self again. Whenever I have done readings for friends its always been spot on….but for my self…I doubt, I have my book, My jewelry, my mothers home….the beach, the tourists, other rasta….and for goodness sakes my notoriety as a foreigner right in my home town (in Jamaica) surely I can use that to get by. This is a big decision. I think I will plan a trip for 6 weeks and come back. I really have no idea what I am stepping into (not about my mothers concerns) Just having to readjust to a new society that I havent visited in 18 years. I truly believe half of what determines a persons experience with persons places or things, is how they felt about that person place or thing before they interacted with it. So, basically your expectations become the reality. The truth is I love my roots and culture so much that I am willing to live in Jamaica with nothing. That is why I mention in a previous post that it is impossible for me to “fail” at this, because to me, Just being able to know I am where my heart wants me to be….is a huge inherited wealth in its self. I must go! The question is… when? The other thing of it is…I must finish this book I started, On “how to become Rastafari.” There are people who would appreciate the guidance, so I have to complete my part of what I said I would do. The other thing is I started to build an online store, for my rasta jewelry and other Rastafari accessories. I am kind of thinking of asking a friend of mine, also a Jamaica rasta, to run it for me. The thing is he already owns a rasta store in Toronto. So, to have an online rasta shop all packaged, ready for him to put his photos up from his shop, would be a dream come true for him. You want to know the funny part? He is in Jamaica right now….lol! So, I cannot even discuss these matters with him.
- I generated my astrology chart for me in Jamaica and it showed me a strong house of career
- The tourist industry is huge in Jamaica perhaps I could take advantage of that by pitching some tents my mothers front lawn…lol
My friend is probably going to come back at the time I will be leaving, that’s the power of the universe. But he could fill up my online rasta shop and just run with it.
I love to Make Rasta Jewelry, and write my Rasta book
I really enjoy making my jewelry, and have so many different styles of African and Jamaican jewelry designs in my head. Plus there are some people on here I will make special pieces for. So, I have a whole slew of things to complete before I go. The book will surely take the longest, and is well worth the wait. I am really personalizing it. I want those seeking the knowledge of Rastafari as a spiritual way of life to really know how to live it, and to really understand it from a Rasta point of view, this is the reason I put my experiences in this book. I do believe Jah chose me to do this. I do believe he knows I have what it takes to do this. Such as my experience, the fact that I enjoy writing, and the fact that I have a story to tell, that is all Rasta, simply for the fact that it has been suppressed for so long. Not only that, I feel I have the words to turn those feelings into something those who are not Rastafari, can understand. I really don’t have big expectations about this book. If it gives me an income of $30 a month I will be happy, it gives me an income of $300 dollars a month I will be happy. I see the money as the way people will say thank you for writing it. Plus I believe any life worth living always leaves something of value behind after the death. Such as Bob Marley, Peter Tosh, Selassie, Marcus Garvey, something created by the person that was a token of their purpose here on earth. So, this book is my token. I am so happy that I have a token!!!! how cool is that? Sometimes I think this darn thing will never get finished. But I must press on.
Moving to Jamaica is the reward!
My reward will be my move to Jamaica. I am so looking forward to it that it brings tears to my eyes. I will feel like I am finally at home. And for good ness sakes, there will be so many SEXY RASTAMEN, out there. Whoooo hoooo, and the Jamaican white sandy beaches. I don’t even know why anybody would want to leave Jamaica and live in Canada or America. I love you all
- Emperor Haile Selassie I
- Jah Ras Tafari
- More Love, More Roots, More Culture
- Tell the Children the truth
- Jah Bless!